I’m a 27 year old guy. Throughout high school and college, I didn’t date. I didn’t try mainly due to my low self-esteem and confidence issues, mainly due to my weight. Girls obviously weren’t throwing themselves at the shy fat guy, and I didn’t put myself out there enough.
I always said I would start dating when I lost the weight. Turns out that kind of pressure I put myself had the opposite effect. I gained weight and went from heavy to obese. So I spent my entire early to mid 20s dealing with all that instead of dating.
However, over the past year and a half I’m proud to say I’ve most of the weight and am about 20 pounds from my goal. I have a decent job, a car, a place of my own, and I finally feel ready to date.
Here’s the issue: I feel way too far behind with no hope of catching up. I’ve done all this self improvement and lost all this weight but sometimes it feels like it’s all for nothing. I’m still the 27 year old guy who has never had a girlfriend, is still a virgin, and has never kissed a girl.
I don’t plan on leading with this on dates, but if it comes up I’m going to be honest about it. I’m worried that even if women like me, they’ll think something is wrong with me for never being in a relationship before. I feel like I’ll never get the experience.
Honestly, it’s not even sex I crave the most. It’s partnership, companionship, and small acts of affection. A hug, a kiss, cuddling. That’s what I want more than anything. It eats at me every single day that I haven’t experienced that.
Some days it really feels like the ship has sailed. Thoughts? Am I worrying for nothing?
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